November 5, 2006

It has been 3 whole months since I wrote anything in my journal. Many things have happened. I have moved to State College, PA and started graduate school. I have also been 100% raw since my last post. So, as of today, I have been 3.5 months raw. This is pretty cool because this is the longest that I have been raw. However, the last few months have been difficult. It has actually been more difficult than the first time I was raw.

But during the last 2 months I have come to one main conclusion: I am addicted to cooked foods. Although I haven’t eaten cooked foods in a while, I have eaten a lot of dehydrated foods. Mainly raisins, and I tend to eat them with nuts. The result is that I am not eating foods with high water content. I think that this why my experience being raw this time has been more difficult than the first time. The first time I was raw, I really connected with the life-force in foods and hardly ate anything that was not fresh and juicy. Now I crave texture, taste, and the need to feel full. I also eat a lot less fruit than before. Being in State College has limited my access to winter fruits, so it has been a little difficult. However, as the season progresses, organic fruits are popping up in the grocery store.

Also I think that my high consumption of dried foods has left me feeling stuffed up and blocked inside. I don’t feel like I have detoxed consistently. I also haven’t lost much weight. I am thirsty a lot because I am not getting water from my foods. I am also eating less than I should be. Overall, I feel that dehydrated foods have caused more problems than benefits.

Now that I know what I am missing, I am determined to eliminate my cravings for dried foods by eating more fruits and vegetables. There is nothing more frustrating than looking at a fridge full of foods and not knowing what I want to eat.

I want to love foods the way I used to love foods. I want to see the life-force in foods. I want to experience divine happiness. I want to be happy all the time. I want to fall in love with myself again. This is what motivates me to eat high energy foods. Maybe the energy has been in the water all along.

By the way, here is a picture of me 2.5 months raw.





















This is a picture of me now, 3.5 months raw.

Also, I just came back from my 5 year college reunion, and I was told that I have a glow. Apparently, it looks like I am in love. Pretty cool!

-Brandi